down..

i am really in bad mood now..holidays are ending soon, and i still got tons of things to be settled..haih..non-stop busy since i finish my strategic management paper..i wish to go out, go shopping, go to eat something that can make me happy..pizza..sushi..layer cake..damn bored and no mood..i wish my memory can be better so i can remember what i have done..and also what that i should have done but i didnt..haih..down down down..

nana..your sadness fly from kuching to me dy lah.. =( (just kidding yah..) wish time fly faster so that can meet you again during our grad..

19.02.2010

19.02.2010...是个让我心碎的日子...因为我养了两个月的guinea pig，就在那天早上大概十点的时候，离开了人世，离开了我.......

它的名叫Qbee...有时我会叫它小嗯...因为它的叫声就是这样嗯嗯嗯的...有时我会叫它大肥，因为它的肚子圆圆的，然后我的hamster花名叫小肥，Qbee 较大只，就叫大肥...它很可爱，也很聪明，很爱撒娇，喜欢我们跟它玩...我把它养在一个笼子里，放在我客厅的门外，只要有人拿起钥匙要开门出去，或从外面回来，它就会叫，就还像一个sensor一样...我们常常说它很吵...我现在好想听它吵闹的声音,却永远也不可能听到了...Qbee..mummy 好想你...

那天早上，我拿起钥匙去开门，却发现Qbee一点声音也没发出，我就觉得很奇怪，还特地叫了它的名字，它也没回应，平时只要我们叫它的名字它就会蹦蹦跳跳会叫的...当时我的心立刻愣了，赶紧跑去它的笼子一看，它已经躺在那儿奄奄一息了...我立刻跑进客厅向我爸求救，它就叫我立刻喂Qbee喝水...我爸轻轻捧着Qbee的头，我就慢慢地喂水...我看它在喘息的样子，看得我的心好痛，我好希望可以为它做点什么，让它舒服一些...喂了一阵子后，它不要喝了，就继续喘息...当时我就有预感它就快要离开我了...我的眼泪就开始不自觉地流下，我看着它喘息，不停呼唤它的名字及抚摸它...心里一直念着，Qbee 你要撑下去啊，你不能死啊...不久后，我发现它的肚子没有了起伏，它停止了呼吸...我还是不放弃，继续抚摸着它，看着它，当时我真得很渴望奇迹会发生...可是，并没有...

它，被埋葬在我家附近的草地，我在那个地方放了一堆石头，方便我认得...今天，我买了一些白石头围绕那个地方，还种了一些小植物...这些是我唯一能为它做的了...我一有空，就会走到它的墓前蹲下，呆呆的望着它被埋葬的地方，对它说mummy好想念你，希望它能投胎做人...我开车出门前也会把车子停在它墓前，看着那片地，想想它...放学回来后，也会绕过它的墓前，看看它...顺道确定它的墓没有被野猫挖掘...

这几天，只要我一想到它，我就会哭，望着那空了的笼子，我哭...蹲在它的墓前，我哭...想起它活蹦乱跳的样子，我哭...想起它吃东西时可爱的样子，我哭...想起怕孤单的它现在孤单单地在地低下，我哭...看着它生前最爱吃的饼干和菜，我哭...看着手机里仅有的它的六张照片，我痛哭...我真的好想念它...

这篇文，我写了一个小时，也哭了一个小时...真的没有办法停止对它的思念...

它就是Qbee..

Qbee..mummy无时无刻都在想你...希望你能投得好胎，远离畜牲道...虽然我们相聚只有短短接近两个月的时间，可是我的你的关爱却是满满的...有缘的话，我们会再相聚的...谢谢你带给我的一切快乐，我会永远记得你的...

我回来了...

离开我的避风港有一段时间了，是有点忙啊，所以没空更新。

我是一个会想很多的人，任何事情只要我愿意，可以想很久，想很远...可是有时我发现，“想太多”这个动作，让我非常累...有些事不想还好，当开始无止境地想下去的时候，很多可怕的东西就会被我给想出来...哎...

最近我好忙呀，打从一开学就忙个没完没了，好闷啊...最后一个学期了，开始有一点不一样的感觉，虽然我对翘课这种事还是会毫不犹豫地去做，可是有时就会觉得这是我最后一次努力的机会了...很期待毕业典礼耶...(我是疯了啦，能不能顺利毕业都还不知道...哈哈...)

上个学期我很快乐，因为娜娜常常会和我一起去逛街，吃东西...好怀念那些日子啊...希望我能够安排到时间去你家乡度度假吧...哈哈...也希望你的面试成功哦！Fighting! XD

最近刚刚看完韩剧花样男子，那四个男主角是帅到一个不行，尤其是李敏镐和金贤重...哈哈...很好看的一套韩剧。计划会把正版光碟买下来，收藏作纪念...

金贤重

李敏镐

哈哈...很帅吧？

heavenly days~

well, its already 1 week frm my prev post..i jz done my hair color ytrday..hehe..happy wif it..and ytrday i found the comics of Koizora..oh my! my 1st reaction when i saw it i was jz stunned there for around 1 minute! haha..itz bcuz i cant bliv i really manage to find it, at a place where normally u wont b able 2 find comic there..haha..its inside Speedy! I am just so so so so happy with it! then i start 2 check whether is there a complete set or not..too bad,its nt complete..bt, who cares! i'll buy those displaying there 1st! keke..9 volumes..and more surprisingly,itz very very cheap! 3@rm10 only..after i found the comic, i jz feel like i already win d jackpot! kekeke..den i continue 2 walk around in d shop..then,guess what? i saw d Koizora's movie+drama DVD! woohoo!! i stunned even longer this time! god! i found dis 3 things that i already looking evrywhere in 1 shop!bought d manga and i am sure will buy d dvd as well b4 im going bck 2 malacca..muahaha..d day is so bright for me..=P then i continue 2 walk around in pyramid, lookin 4 accessories 2 match wif my new year clothes, then i found d earring of nightmare b4 christmas!! and also, itz only 3@rm10! without thinking, i bought 3 of dem..muahaha..and 2 of them r on my earz now! XD

i really have spent alot dis week =P bt im soooooooooooooooooooooo enjoy wif spending money! (im sick! XD)

bck 2 Koizora, i actually discover dis name by accident.i rmb one day i am searchin 4 love song in youtube,i just use Love Song as d keyword and there r tons of result came out..den, a movie wif the title of Amazed attracted my attention..den i watch d video, and i was attracted 2 it! seriouly..d song Amazed doesnt appear in Koizora bt someone match it wif Koizora's scene..aftre i watch d video,i tell myself that dis is d movie dat i must watch! then of course, i watch it frm youtube (d drama)..it is soooooo touching..i started 2 cry since episode 3..where mika had miscarriage and hero found out that he had cancer and decided 2 leave mika..i can feel d pain while watchin it..most touchin part is d private small wedding ceremony btween mika and hero..in the garden of d hospital that hero staying..T.T dey say out their vow 2 each other..

better stop writting bout it now cuz im gona cry soon if continue 2 write about dis pure love story! strongly recommended 2 all of u..

after 3 months

after 3 months of the completion of my internship,I am finally now in sunway pyramid again..the place that i used to hang out everyday after work during my internship..gona hang out here for all day long..why? because i don't want to stay at home..and my boy friend need to stay back for make up class tonight,so if i stay at home, i'll only see him at 11pm++..will be damn boring if like that..

just had my breakfast at Alios's Cafe..haha..planned to took picture of my food de but i forgotten in the end, because..i am just too hungry! XD and i started to eat once it has been served. keke..gona wait till 1pm then have lunch with my piggy..keke..but i am already super full now..ate spaggeti carbonara with ice lemon tea with the company of Ifeel..haha..i just love Ifeel..i could simply feel depressed if i didn't manage to buy it..

well, tomorrow will be a better day as in i don't need to hang out alone..i am gonna spend my time to perm my hair! finally..after 1 whole year..and also, not forgotten to dye hair also..keke..

乐。

今天好开心哦！哈哈...吃到了最爱的食物，买到了找了很久的东西...嘻嘻...乐乐乐乐乐! 娜娜公主，赶快上传照片呗...嘻嘻...

昨天的考试，哎...我真想去撞墙啊...明明读了的东西却没把它写进答案卷里，我是猪啊...所以呢，为了弥补自己的白痴，接下来这张考卷就好发奋了！

还有两天我就自由咯！哇咔咔...

无题

还有七个小时我就要踏入考场了，希望考试顺利呗...

最近我好惨，花钱给人家摧残我...哈哈...事情是这样的，上个星期三，睡醒后就发现自己落枕，颈项是痛到一个不行，所以只好找中医求救...结果叻，医师说我需要针灸和拔罐，当时的我是有点怕啦，毕竟是我生平第一次耶...忐忐忑忑，终于结束了疗程...原来针灸一点就不痛，反而是拔罐及拔罐后的推拿，是痛到...很夸张一下的咯...在这里奉劝朋友们不要长期熬夜，不然就会像我一样，搞到自己脾胃肝发热气，然后呢，煎炸辣冷凉的食物，眼看手勿动...痛苦啊...

明天又有一个聚会咯！哈哈...我最爱得日本料理，还有幸福蛋糕，我来了........想到就开心啊！