故事。

她，遇见了他。

被他深深地吸引。

还没开始恋情时，

她犹豫，

因为他有一个她不喜欢的动作。

当时，

她天真地以为，

会有一天，

他会为了她改变...

时间飞逝，

她失望，

因为他并没有为了她改变。

她流泪，

她心酸，

她醒悟了。

世界上，别人不一定会为了你的付出而回报，

甚至，

把你的付出当作理所当然。

Promise? Shit?

A promise is only a piece of shit if it was said but not done.

Sometimes, people use " promise " as a weapon,

a weapon to shut others up,

a weapon to shows that they are actually " care " ,

and always..they give others fake hope..

by making promise which they know they couldn't make it,

and even worse, they will not even remember they have made such promise before.

改变

原来，伤心地痛哭，是会让人肚子饿的。

从现在起，
我会是一个全新的我，
为了我们能开心地走下去。
希望，我们能一起努力。
加油。

Smile....?

Hmmm...
Recently I am kinda emo...
Not only when working...
even at home fb-ing also i can be emo...
Some friends ask me..
whats wrong with me..
how come i always post the emo emo thing...
and den my production member and colleague also ask me..
whats wrong with me..why always see me like no energy like that...
i still can remember..last year..
my production member said they like to see me walking around in production floor..
because i always have my smile on my face..
its like everything is good and it makes them comfortable..
thats why now, they actually worried about me..
because they hardly see my smile nowadays...

Haiz... I actually also tried to figure out whats wrong with me...
Too many things to worry?
I guess so...
and emo led to bad temper...
which i don like it...
haiz..
sometime i just felt like i am not me..
i am lost....

I am back!!

After so long...
here I am...
I am back to my haven...

I took MC today..
my very first MC of the year..
thanks to Migraine..

And I am kinda down...
Last time, I am too sensitive,
that's why I always feel annoyed..or irritated...
After that I changed..
But this time, I am sure is not my problem...
You are the one that should know the limit..
Some words You cant just simply tell anyone....
I do not accept the explanation such as just kidding or what..
those words, for me, is not a joke.

Meaningless.

"星期五去到你公司时，看到你的车子，真希望可以见到你。不管怎样，你也不可能拿走我对你的思念。"


Just now,
someone send me this message..
Honestly,
after i read the message,
I got no feeling.


Because everything has changed.
When I was the one that care of the relationship,
I was not appreciated.
That fella gave all kind of excuses,
to leave me.


One thing I wanna tell that fella for one last time.
NO matter how,
Please don forget that you hurt me so bad last time.
Please be thankful because now I accept you as a friend.
Don make our friendship reach the stage where I am gonna block you from everything,
so you will not able to see any update of me.


When its the time you should appreciate, you didnt.
When the time you choose to give up,
everything between you and me has gone.
Totally.

茫。然。

我好像，
慢慢迷失了自己。
我的生活，
好像不一样了。

好像，
每天都在 Copy and Paste 我的生活步骤。
每天重复着一样的东西。
几乎每天，
脑袋里有着同样的想法，
担心着同样的东西，
为了同一件事而耿耿于怀，
喜怒无常。
说真的，
我害怕，
这样的生活，
我怕。
怕我会慢慢失去自我，
怕我会就这样安于现状，
怕我就这样被磨灭了斗志，
怕当初那坚持着的念头慢慢变得渺小，
怕，一成不变。

好想念，
我的朋友们。
一起念书的日子，
好快乐。
无论怎样，
我都不会是一个人...
身在别个城市的你们，
过得还好吗?

最近 Po 的文都是比较负面的，
最近心情是比较低落。
无奈...

现在，
已经是六月十一号了，
倒数着两个重要的日子。
两个改变我很多的日子。
两个重要的决定。
是欣喜的，
是快乐的，
我更愿意相信，
是注定的。