Angel~

"Every girl was an angel from heaven. No one should make a girl cry because when she first drops a tear in the world, God will take back her wings and she is no longer an angel."..this sentence was posted by me in my facebook few days ago..wen i 1st heard it,i feel so..so..erm..i dono how 2 describe.

angel..i got few angels too..3 living with me evryday,another 1 is quite far away..end of diz month,im gona leave d 3 angels dat always by myside,then live wif d 1 dat far frm me now..who r near by me now will b far frm me and d 1 far frm me now wil b d closest 1 starting end of diz month..

final exam is right at d corner...bt til now i stil hvnt start study yet..1na die ah??hehe..mayb..jz no mood 2 study..i always like dat..haih..could i maintain my CGPA diz sem?i dono..cuz im nt confident wif d IBF subject..well,lets pray dat d Q wont b too hard^^

Murmur~

20+ days more im gona leave malacca and move 2 KL for 4 months..for my industrial training..well,i hvnt prepare anything yet,bside d formal wear..

last week was d IBF and investment class event..itz damn tiring..stil rmb d nite b4 d event v stay at dp 4 d preparation of our exhibition and me as a member of deco design division hv 2 help setting d bckdrop of stage too..i reach home dat day at 4 am..den 7.30 am reach bck dp..deduct d time 2 bath and dress up,i sleep only 1hour+..is a record in my life..huh..

diz event is a memory,a sweet+sour memory..gt 2 knw some new frens..hehe..thru dis event,i saw some ppl's real faces,which hv been covered by mask all d while i knw dem..well,i accept it,as ppl like dat is all around,i cant do nything..

erm..my future..i hope dat my industrial training will go smooth..wish wish wish..hehe..

Personality test~

I just took a personality test~"Know yourself better" and here is d result..quite true de wo^^

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

成长

成长，是每个人必经的过程，没有人可以逃避成长，因为那是不可能的事...面对成长，我有太多太多的感觉了...彷徨，不安，害怕，迷惘，期待，快乐...有时候觉得，好像看不见自己的未来、看不见自己的前途、看不见自己以后的生活会是如何，而开始彷徨...然，看不见的未来，未必不是一件好事，因为那一份不确定，让我更勇敢与坚强的去面对那成长、让我更努力的去创造我想要的未来...



还记得小时候，我是多么的期待成长啊...因为小时候的认知是，只要长大以后，就能得到梦寐以求的自由...到现在，长大了，自由吗？有是有，却也是有限的。以前所想象的长大后的世界，太美好了，现在真真切切的活在大人的世界里，才可以深刻的体会到，什么是无奈、什么是身不由己、什么是人不为己，天诛地灭、什么是责任...

一路走来，友情和爱情，让我学到了很多很多，有好的也有不好的。决裂的友情和被遗弃的爱情，让我知道人世间，就是存在着口是心非的人，永远有人在你背后等着机会捅你一刀，甚至置你于死地。不是我的思想悲观，而是我觉得，以前的我太单纯了...相信所谓的友谊、所谓的天长地久的爱情、所谓的真心、所谓的唯一...一切一切的往事，让我体会到了什么是人生...虽然我只是一个处于双十年华的小丫头，可是我所体会到的，一定不会输给一个中年人...

太多的感慨，让我开始害怕人群，害怕再遇到一心想要害我的人，害怕再受伤...可是，我别无选择，就算再害怕，就算再不愿意，我都必须走入人群，因为没有一个人是可以离群而活的。或许以后，我会一次一次的跌倒、一次一次的被伤害、一次一次地为了付出真心，却换不来真情而落泪，就算再苦，我也必须勇敢地面对，因为，那是我唯一的出路...

我病了吗？

最近开始怀疑，我，是不是患上了情绪病...心情的起伏很大，时而可以开心地大笑、下一秒却又郁闷得想大哭一场...总觉得，我的心情，我的想法，没有人可以了解...是我要求太高？是我太过冷漠？我好纳闷，从前那个开朗的我，到哪里去了？上了大学以后，我越变越冷漠，有时候我自己都受不了...可是为什么？我就是那样的对事情都不闻不问，漠不关心...这样的心情，由谁能了？就连我心爱的他，也都不了解...是我的想法太复杂？是因为我早已经看懂人性，所以那么不屑？我不懂...目前我也没办法去懂，我好累，好希望可以不理这一切，过我想要的生活...或许，我是在逃避，逃避眼前的一切，逃避这个不想面对却别无选择的现实...

那几天，习惯了有你在身边...习惯了无论去到哪里，都跟你在一起...习惯了被你当面叫我宝贝、老婆...习惯了看你撒娇的样子...那几天,真的过得好开心...今天,你必需回去了,送你离开后,回到那个没有了你的家,每一个角落,都有你的影子...不喜欢和你分开的感觉,不喜欢和你说再见,不喜欢明明很舍不得却还要微笑,不喜欢你不在我身边...你说,再过两年,我们就不需要承受离别的苦...两年...说长不长,说短不短................(待续)...

喜欢

喜欢一个不喜欢自己的人，不论是明恋还是暗恋，都带来某程度上的痛苦和烦恼…想要关心却不被接受，想要呵护更是被拒绝，想要了解却被拒于千里之外…掏出一颗真心，换来却是冷淡…命运就是这样，你越想得到的东西，就越不容易得到…有些人被拒绝后，会选择放弃；有些人被拒绝后，反而更加的锲而不舍…放弃的人，或许会被别人说成不去争取幸福的人，那些穷追不舍的人，或许又会被说成死缠烂打…其实，在心意不被接受的情况下，放弃，或许是让双方都比较好过的出路…当然，要放弃一个自己喜欢的人不是一件容易的事，但是，套句老话，世上无难事…时间是最好的解药…把喜欢对方的那一份心意，藏在心底，默默地祝福对方，愿他/她过得幸福…不再需要把你对他/她的喜欢表露出来，因为你的表现或许是对方的困扰…放手，让彼此喘一口气，让对方过自己的生活，只要他/她开心就好…看到自己喜欢的人过得开心，我想，自己的心里也会跟着笑吧…就算是得不到对方…你快乐所以我快乐…反之，有些人选择穷追不舍，千方百计就是要俘虏对方的心，什么傻事都愿意去做，就为了要让对方注意自己，知道自己的心意…我本人不喜欢这种死缠烂打的人，就我来说，那是一种困扰…可是不是每个人都接受不到的，有些人却吃这一招，你越不放弃，对方就越觉得他/她自己很重要…籍而满足自己的虚荣心…要锲而不舍地去爱一个不爱你的人，首要条件就是要脸皮厚…有时候我觉得这是自讨苦吃的做法，吃力却未必会讨好…可是每每就是会有这一些越挫越勇的人，世界才会变得有趣…爱与被爱，都是一种幸福…不论是选择爱，抑或是被爱，或则是爱与被爱同时进行，最重要的，就是要让自己开心，不要让自己受委屈…愿大家都幸福吧！