Meaningless.

"星期五去到你公司时，看到你的车子，真希望可以见到你。不管怎样，你也不可能拿走我对你的思念。"


Just now,
someone send me this message..
Honestly,
after i read the message,
I got no feeling.


Because everything has changed.
When I was the one that care of the relationship,
I was not appreciated.
That fella gave all kind of excuses,
to leave me.


One thing I wanna tell that fella for one last time.
NO matter how,
Please don forget that you hurt me so bad last time.
Please be thankful because now I accept you as a friend.
Don make our friendship reach the stage where I am gonna block you from everything,
so you will not able to see any update of me.


When its the time you should appreciate, you didnt.
When the time you choose to give up,
everything between you and me has gone.
Totally.

茫。然。

我好像，
慢慢迷失了自己。
我的生活，
好像不一样了。

好像，
每天都在 Copy and Paste 我的生活步骤。
每天重复着一样的东西。
几乎每天，
脑袋里有着同样的想法，
担心着同样的东西，
为了同一件事而耿耿于怀，
喜怒无常。
说真的，
我害怕，
这样的生活，
我怕。
怕我会慢慢失去自我，
怕我会就这样安于现状，
怕我就这样被磨灭了斗志，
怕当初那坚持着的念头慢慢变得渺小，
怕，一成不变。

好想念，
我的朋友们。
一起念书的日子，
好快乐。
无论怎样，
我都不会是一个人...
身在别个城市的你们，
过得还好吗?

最近 Po 的文都是比较负面的，
最近心情是比较低落。
无奈...

现在，
已经是六月十一号了，
倒数着两个重要的日子。
两个改变我很多的日子。
两个重要的决定。
是欣喜的，
是快乐的，
我更愿意相信，
是注定的。

Confused.

I always heard of this sentence.. " You will never walk alone "..
It sounds sweet, sounds supportive,
but I don think it happens all the time..

Hmm..
I will never walk alone?
I don't think so..
Sometime,
I am walking alone,
and keep on looking back,
to check is there anyone behind me who tried to chase me..near me..
to check are you behind me...
Sometime,
I am happy because when I turn around, I see you there..
But sometime i was disappointed..
Because you are not there..and left me waiting....

Or I should think another way..
Maybe when people need me..
I cant be there for them too..
And so they will have the same feeling of mine...

When I am not alone, when I am with friends,
I am an optimist, I like to smile and laugh,
I always give positive comment and think positively..encouraging..
But when I am alone..
I change..
Change to become a quiet and negative girl.
Contradict.

Soon,
I am gonna complete my first year service in current company..
What I need to figure out  now is my goal of life..
My future..
Which path should I choose..
For my first step in career life,
I've chosen the path that is not commonly chose..
Its time for me to consider of make some changes..

Good luck to me..and to the one that is reading this..
Cheers~
=)